MY PSALM
by Suzanne Walshe-Cooley
O my LORD, why do I feel so alone?
Please do not abandon me
As I know the pain in my heart and soul
From past hurts.
Please watch over me.
Wrap Your loving arms around me
so I can get through the
Physical pain and mental anguish.
Deep in my soul,
I know You are near me.
You have promised me solace
Because of Your love and
The gift of Your Son - JESUS.
I was inspired to write a personal psalm when I attended a seminar and heard Dr. Craven speak in July, 2008. She presented an enlightening series of speeches on the Psalms. Dr. Craven stated, that the Psalms are divided into three parts. (1) First the pain and anguish of that individual who is praying, lists their ailments; (2) The individual pleads for protection and healing; (3) the individual acknowledges that God will heal his ills because He has promised remedy.
The past year and a half have been a trying time for me. On December 21, 2007 my kidney specialist advised me that I was close to Renal Failure and would have to go on dialysis and be approved for a Kidney Transplant. So for most of 2008, I went through the processes to start dialysis with several surgeries and being approved for a transplant at Baylor in Fort Worth. There were agonizing decisions that had to be made as to what dialysis process would work best for me. My family chose to be involved in these decisions. It was and still is difficult for them, even though I had told them that someday I would have to go on dialysis, it was still a shock that the time had come - for them and me. "You looked so healthy, working full time and participating in sports and social activities - You did not appear to be ill." How could this be! Were the doctors looking at the right file?
Life has settled in a repetitive schedule, now. Dialysis is a priority - first on the agenda - Monday - Wednesday - Friday.
All, other items - church, work, appointments and activities are fitted in to the time that is left.
~ So, Life Goes On! ~
Suzanne Walshe-Cooley
